Been a long time since I blogged. I think the other entries are all from 2007 and earlier. Much has changed, not all good, but life goes on, doesn't it. I have a good life, and I often say 'it doesn't suck to be me' with a grin. Things have changed in a major way lately though. A stream of seemingly unconnected, almost random events came together to put me 180 degrees from where I was a month ago. The first event was my unbiological sister whom I love dearly sent me a Bible, with a beautiful green leather cover which matches my motorcycle. I sincerely appreciated the gesture and it sat on the table next to my bed, looking pretty, but untouched. About a month after that, I decided to accept an invitation from two friends to attend their church service. The sermon was about keeping relationships, mainly marriage, healthy. The Reverend started out saying that those of us who were there alone, without a spouse or partner, well, there was a reason, and that reason was that the person God had chosen for us just wasn't ready ... this was the first time it occured to me that I didn't have to actually *do* something to meet someone, that it isn't even in my power, it's in His hands and He's quite capable, thank you. :-) A couple of weeks later I sent an email to someone as a joke, and we began dating, not for long, only about 4 dates, but I did really like this man, I think he's the sort of man I'd like to end up with. I say I did like this man, I should say I do like this man, he will stay in my life as a friend, and I think I'm very fortunate to have him as a friend. But at the time, I was very upset, and I reached for the Bible that Vic had sent to me, opened it up to John 14 - and read how the way to the Father is through the Son. And it just resonated in my heart, that this is what was missing in my life, this was the relationship I had been looking for. Everyday I read from the book, and it speaks to me, it touches me, it heals me. I looked for a passage to read which would say how thankful I am for this change in me, and came across Isaiah 25:8 instead ... random passages that have much to do with my life ... this time the passage had to do with His promise to tear down the 'fortressed' walls ... I have built terribly tall walls around me, but I feel them tumbling daily. And I look back at my life up to now and I know that He has been after me for quite some time, but I just didn't look up. I can't even begin to say how glad I am that I paid attention this time.